Tanya's Confessionals

[Tanya Vance]

Well at the moment the first immunity challenge is over and I know that I performed really well but our tribe still came in last so I already know that we are going to be going to tribal council to vote somebody out. I just hope that it isn't me that will be voted out. I already have it set in my head that I will be voting off John tonight for he didn't even participate in the challenge. I just hope that I might have earned some sort of prize for doing the best in my tribe but I will have to wait and see. At this moment I have not really had a chance to talk to anybody from my tribe except through the boards so I have no idea what they are thinking at the moment so this tribal to me at least seems up in the air and hopefully I will be here afterwards to write another confessional.

[Rob Mariano]

Man you got off to a super start!

[Tanya Vance]

Thanks. Well when I figured out my system/strategy for the challenge it made scoring points a little more easier for me. I was a little disappointed that my tribemates weren't as active in the challenge as me and Kenny but with one person being totally inactive and thus dead weight made tribal council very easy for me and hopefully the same for everybody else. In which I have already talked to Jessie and Jerri and we all agreed on the same person and if this person remains inactive he will selfvote and be voted off.

I am also excited about the rewards I got from getting the most points in my tribe. First off I now have the individual immunity idol that I can use for extra safety. I am also psyched about going to Ubirr. I already have the clues from art board #2 I was sent to and I am kind of working with Sophie and we exchanged clues so I now have the clues for art board #4 and I think I might know the quote for the first set of clues. So hopefully I will be able to go back to Ubirr after this next immunity challenge guess the quote and hopefully I am right and get one of the hidden immunity idols in Ubirr.

[Natalie White]

Great job Tanya! What is your guess for the first idol?

[Rob Mariano]

Wow interesting... What do you think the password is?

[Tanya Vance]

Actually I have been looking up quotes and I have guesses for each one at the moment.

My guess for the clues to #1 is : "We must become the change we want to see." - Ghandi

#2 : "A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval." - Mark Twain

#3 : "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate." - Marianne Williamson t

Well these are the guesses I have to each clue. No way I can know if I am right or not until I get back to Ubirr.

[Tanya Vance]

OK so another update. Apparently a lot of us at Ubirr are not being very secretive (sadly myself included). I just talked to Chase and he already exchanged clues with JT and I told him that I exchanged clues with Sophie so we both ended up exchanging our clues so that Chase and myself each have 4 clues to each password quote. And at the moment I really believe that I know all three of the passwords now, but I didn't have to change one of them after I got the clues from Chase.

1: We must become the change we want to see
2: A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval
3: In time we hate that which we often fear

So next time I am at Ubirr I am pretty sure I will get one of the HII's if they are still there.

[Rob Mariano]

What are your thoughts on your tribe? You are practically leading the tribe after just joining it!

[Tanya Vance]

I really do like all of my tribemates that I have talked to. I do wish that they would be a little more active and post more often just to show that they are doing something and not just floating or coasting through. I am very sympathetic towards most of them for the first challenge because that was a very difficult challenge and everyone that is still left in my tribe did at least try to participate, even if it wasn't very successful. The majority of my interaction with my tribe had been off the board and on AIM. Jerri is fun to talk to, Jessie does try and she was the first person from my tribe to help me with the popularity challenge, and I finally talked to Amber today and kind of finalized what we were doing for today's challenge. I know that Amber, Jessie, and myself have completed our individual parts of today's challenge and I hope that Ken and Jerri have done so as well. I know that Ryan is completely inactive after he scored his points in the last immunity challenge and if we are sent to tribal he is definitely the one going, and if we get immunity he is one lucky son of a bitch. And so far I have not talked to Kenny off of the boards and he hasn't messaged me either. SO hopefully this was insightful, I just feel that most of these confessionals for me are just my ramblings but I hope they are entertaining to whoever reads them.

[Tanya Vance]

Oh crap I may have just screwed myself over two times last night. I might have screwed myself in the tribe unless I am just being paranoid. I was talking to Jessie and I decided to tell her about Ubirr and my immunity necklace, trying to show her that I am wanting to work with her. But then she kind of quickly went offline so I am not sure if she is thinking that I am a major target or not. Hopefully she still thinks of me as an ally.

My second screw over could be from JT. JT is the only returning member to go to Ubirr from the first round. So I was trying to help him out with an exchange. I wanted to know if he received a prize for going to Ubirr like the immunity necklace from the first time, and which board he would take the idol from after I give him the passwords to unlock it. Well then we went back and forth about trust and he doesn't think he can trust me or not. So I think that maybe he might put a target on me for trying to play the game this strongly this early in the game.

So hopefully I don't get screwed over with my tribe tonight when the votes are revealed tonight.

[Tanya Vance]

Oh my fucking god I am so screwed right now, along with everybody who is new to the Nanguluwur tribe. In this new Nanguluwur tribe there are 6 people who were apart of the original tribe and that outnumbers the 5 new people who were picked into it. None of the other newly merged tribes have a majority from the original. There is some hope but it is very faint. Luckily Chase, Sophie, and myself have individual immunity necklaces we received as gifts from going to Ubirr during the first round, but unfortunately JT and the rest of his original tribe knows that we have these necklaces (or so he says). So unless we win every immunity until the 3 tribes merge into two then I have a very good chance of getting voted out. Or if there is possibly another tribe swap again really soon like in 3 or 4 rounds. Heck in fact I wouldn't mind a mutiny twist and just jump ship because my prospects in any other tribe is a lot brighter.

[Tanya Vance]

This game had gotten so much more stressful and harder much faster than I thought it would. Me and some other tribemates might be pulling a very desperate and big move that is extremely crazy and might backfire. I don't know what to do right now. *sits down in fetal position and starts to contemplate*

[Sally Schumann]

Hey, Tanya, thanks for the updates so far! In a perfect world, what would happen this round?

[Tanya Vance]

If my plan goes perfectly. My tribe would go to tribal, the original Nanguluwur tribe/alliance would vote for either Chase, Sophie, or myself. Hopefully the person who tells me who the alliance is voting for will be telling me the truth. Then if it will be one of us (Chase, Sophie or myself) the person would use their immunity necklace from the first round of Ubirr. And one of the original Naguluwur goes home and Jessie (who I told the passwords to get the HII and has it) will join my tribe and the new members now have the majority of 6-5. That would be in a perfect world but I don't think that that would happen. *goes back into fetal position and starts rocking back and forth*

[Rob Mariano]

You know the immunity necklace is the exact same as an individual one? Its not a HII?