Round 20 Confessional

[Gary Hogeboom]

The big 2-0! Who'd have ever thunk Gary Hawkins would make it to the bicentennial mark and be alive in the final 7. I think going through the PW's prediction entries after the game will be so interesting, just to see where everybody put me. I always think of myself as a dark horse candidate to win ames. I never shine in challenges, or have the finest social skils (honestly, when ppl complain i don't talk with them a lot like BobDawg did, its just cus most ppl online I wouldn't talk to in the real world if we were the only people in an elevator). What sets me apart is my ability to perceive my standing in a tribe, and how others perceive me in a tribe. Using those factors, I wiggle my way out of many scenarios.

For instance, this most recent round when I was a strong candidate for elimination, I twisted the vote around onto Lex and sent that dirty, lying scumball out of Kakadu. He was certainly the conversationalist, and he always seemed to have a nose in everybody else's business. Plus I seemed pretty confident he was going to come for me sooner rather than later. So unfortunately, my boot Silas plan had to be put on temporary hiatus, but its good to see everybody followed directions I told them to follow

This live challenge tonight should be interesting, and I hope to god it's something that Russell won't totally beast in. Funny story, I think people see me as the 2nd biggest threat to Russell left in the game. This puts me in an awk position where, if I eliminate Russ too soon, then I become public enemy number 1 if ppl's heads are on straight and tight. But if I keep him in too long, he'll fight himself into the final tribal and win the jury votes handily.

Just things to ponder as the final 7 continue their journey.

[Gary Hogeboom]

Well the seemingly impossible has happened, and Russell has no immunity this round. I think the number one goal by far is to eliminate him, but some questions entered my mind. Mainly, would Ralph give up his idol for Russel to stay in? My original answer was yes, Ralph is Russell's ally and Ralph would most certainly feel pressure from Russ to donate his idol. They have been working together for a long time, and perhaps he feels indebted to him, wants to play selflessly?

According to Yul, ralph isn't the most likely person to donate an idol, so he feels secure in voting Russell. Conveniently he makes this statement when he himself has the immunity necklace. Pretty fortunate, eh? According to Yul, Ami isn't completely sold on the vote, which i think is stupid. The bitch has voted with me every round except the one Eliza left on, so I don't see a reason to betray me at this point. Considering my hatred of people who vote for me is strong, she should be lucky to still be in the game at this point. I need to first and foremost convince Ami that russell should leave now (i know it's kinda dumb to have to explain why the biggest threat needs to leave, but Ami is on that low of an intelligence level).

I think in the end, I'll be voting Russell to leave, and he will probably go. Kinda pissed at Yul for all the crap he's been giving to me about voting Lex, saying "my plan was flawless. I was gonna boot him later. I'm a douchebag on steroids." Well that last sentence isn't a direct quote, but it's a loose interpretation of stuff he said. Now that he's 100% safe this round the crappy side of him comes out, and it's pretty easy for him to annoy the shit out of people. I'm betting that is what is getting Ami to question Yul's decision on the vote.

Hopefully I convince Ami voting russell is correct, but if by some crazy power of god I don't, I'll be sure to get Silas out. He's still somebody that is fuckin lucky to be here, and I'll have no part of him making the finals.

[Gary Hogeboom]

Haven't had a chance to talk to Ami yet, but there are already some warning flags thrown by Ralph to me. In talking with him, he states that he doesn't really care if he wins or not. Yes, he wants to win, and he would try hard, but when asked who his ideal final 3 would be he answered himself, Russell, and me. Do I really believe he wants me in the finals, probably not, but how can he realistcally say he wants Russell with him as well? Maybe he isn't as selfish as Yul claims he is? I really need to think over if we should vote out Silas or Ralph instead of Russell, because all the indications I am given seem like Ralph would hand a win to Russell.

If it turns out Ami won't vote Russell, i'll use that as an excuse to swap the vote onto one of those other two. That way, my desires are still reached, but I can't take the blame for it.

[Gary Hogeboom]

So I guess John decided to pretend throw me under the bus and try getting the opposing three to vote me, probably to sway the idol away from Russ. I still need to talk to Ami, make sure she's in my corner.

[Gary Hogeboom]

Where the fuck is Ami she needs to get on ASAP!!!